When you're flirting with death it's hard to realize what's really going on.
Yeah i'm trying to be strong.
But everything i do and say is wrong.
You had a place in my heart but i thought you were deceiving me.
Now nothing pleases me.
Walking down this barren road.
Trying to mend my heart of stone.
It seems i only feel for those who can save me.
But i'm unwanted in this reality.
I wrote beautiful words for you,
but erased them in fear for what you would say or do.
Yeah i think i still feel for you.
But i try to distract myself because i don't know if you want me in the room.
Maybe i'm not cut out for this.
I fall too hard and try to resist.
It's a pathetic fallacy how you made my heart sing.
If i could i would give your heart wings.
But i'm too weak.
Maybe i'm in too deep.
Or am i?
When all you try to do is forget the good.
It's hard to focus on the things you should.
Yeah your smile and words melted my wounds and shards.
But i feel like happiness is too far.
I craved your touch as well as your presence.
Now i'm left pondering on the essence.
Are you really what i need?
It seems like it to me, or so it seems.
But i'm caught up in the negativity,
oh what i would give for this to all be just a bad dream.
But you made the sun shine, even though we both know i'm running out of time.
And even though i know i'm hopeless, i'll still be happy if i have you by my side.