And you hate me
And always will
I know there're laughing
But it feels more like
A thousand daggers when
You know the gist
And not the details

Whatever happened to being yourself
Or your own worst enemy
I'm sorry if I get it wrong
These eyes are no longer my own
The world is no L word anymore
It's just not big enough

By everything, unhinged-
Money and dead leaves
Spider-webs and shattered glass
Light-bulbs and nooses
Hangers and trees
Scarecrows and Jesus
Atlantis America
Animal AI
Shoelaces and hangman-
It's all I see
In a sliver of the multitudes of me
While duality's making a killing
And the devil plays with more DNA
And I wonder how long endurance
Can outlive truth

Take control
Spin me up and away
But don't spin a web
Don't play with my head
Please don't conform
With your ears and your eyes
Use a little more brain, a little more spine
Then again, all my heroes
Have gone to milk cartons
Or simply have gone away
And while I speak my mind
The hypocrites scream diatribe
But words are all I have
And I'm just a crazy pariah
So what do they care
My world is coming to an end
And I'm not supposed to tell them
What nobody knows

The tome is heavy
The message is light
But I no longer have the luxury
Of distraction
I need purging
But they just want to get clean

There's too much I can't forget
And tons more I can't remember
And the whole world seems to know the latter-
Slashed and diced
Brain on a platter
If there's really room in the end
Maybe I shouldn't worry
But is there room for truth?
I don't want to solve the universe
I want to solve my forgone youth
And I rather hang with the crucified and poor
They don't have time for videotape and black magic-
All that's tragic
No guilt
No innocence
Just trying to survive the next ten minutes

Pregnant mind
Keeps rewinding
Going backwards in time to the
Opposite of life
So forgive me the delve, the dare
And maybe the wrong
These questions and methods replace
Bullets I don't own
And the chamber is always full