Is it dawn or dusk I can't tell But I feel competent I know what lies ahead
Cocktail parties And bar-stool nights It's no longer Main Street It's the Nile
When the amulet of ringlets From my eyeball glass Makes me tumble evermore Into the damp, dark streets
Another binge Another ****** Another lavish fee For yet another shoddy ghost
But it eases my loneliness Boosts my confidence Entices my fantasy bone Relaxes my harried soul
Got to purge this moral anemia Splurge on all academia Just to feel the surge That makes the brain waves flow
But this merry go round and round Don't stop when the music does My rock bottom is an ocean Swirling to the siren's call
I've tried everything Under the sun But neuroses can't be cured When you're under someone's thumb
I put it all on the shelf Hid the corkscrew and the belt Just to gnash it open with my fangs Releasing all those hunger pangs
Cause I can't live for laundry lint Or wait for the big accident I know better than to read a tragedy When my palette's clean
Spirits in this glass Help me rid those in my life I've got reasons of the flesh But mostly of the mind
Took so many blows from the outside I'm poor at heart I'm dominated by The lack of vine inside
I need to stimulate my senses To simulate my defenses Swimming with the sharks Against these high tides
Don't want to be nobody's public charge My reprieve came early My sentence fastened like a bag of bricks My caretaker's not waiting by the pearly gates
So just let me be insulated Let me keep warm Ignore those violet stains on my shirt Ignore this violent strain in my voice
Undernourished an inhuman They all want revelation with good endings But when it's 4AM, every hour of every day You start to hold tight to these newborn dreams
So easily familiar, so wretchedly out of reach Praying for bonanza or ultimate decay You can't settle for anything else So you rather hold your breath and wait
The mouse and the bat Protruding through that hole in the wall It's always little animals No dinosaurs
I keep snapping my fingers Making signs of a deluded cross Cause I ain't got no gravy train And I ain't got no St. Helen
Guess I'll remain on the porch Travel through the marshes of the storm Asked for blood to transform my fears But they gave me Mut's duped and heavy tears
They all want heaven on a stick A cornucopia of tricks I'm just trying to survive The next twenty minutes
It's always "Did she jump or was she pushed?" But no one really cares It's a cold case for the books
In the dark night of the soul You're just a relic to behold Stuck in the bell jar Like an innocent monster
The world's on crack And it's not all it's cracked up to be So I'll wallow in my 96 proof blood This straight Apple Jack's the only savior I see (It's all a royal harem's conspiracy)