I let it occupy the whole of me
And its hold on me kept escalating

My hand reaching out to my head
pinching ,scratching.
My nails fighting the hair off my wrinkled brain
Changing the color of my untouched skin
Turning me into a monster , I couldn't see

It went away and left me with
damp cheeks, bruised skin ,
cheapened love and helplessness

And knowing the consequences now,
I do it again AND AGAIN!!