Sometimes i feel trapped in a maze of suffocating thoughts.Every now and then they keep popping up in my head and just cause total havoc.Sometimes i keep hearing these voices in my head.These voices criticize me,demean me and humiliate me...they shout out loud...'You are a coward.Your life is and will always be a failure and there's nothing you will even do about it...'coz you're too scared.' I feel like i'm drowning in a sea of self-doubts.My fears are overpowering all of my senses.My confidence is taking a beating on a daily basis.The people who mean a lot to me keep hurting me.When i need their support they seem to desert me.I'm not sure as to how much more of this my fragile soul can take.I'm losing track of my life.I'm losing my mind..insanity looms large.There have been times when i wished i was dead or never born.What am i doing with my life?..where am i going?...what do i want to do?...when will i achieve success?...will i ever find love?...who are my friends?..what is the essence of my life?...what will be my legacy?..so many unanswered questions...these questions strangle me on a daily basis.The mirror is my only companion.Its been with me through every high and low.Its never seen me smile.Its been a witness to my eternal tears.Unlike others it has never betrayed me.
What will i be?...i don't know.Where will life take me?...i don't have a clue.I just keep drifting along the current of life.Who am i?...just a nobody who wants to be somebody.You and me...we're no different.Just like you i too have my dreams and aspirations.At times it feels a bit weird that inspite of my life being so miserable i still dare to dream and aspire.Perhaps its a sign that things are bad but there is hope.
May be i should give myself a chance,give one final effort...one final push..and prove those voices in my head,wrong.Its now or never.I have this one chance...this one opportunity to dispel my misery forever and i can't let it slip.I alone am responsible for my future and it's brightness depends upon me.So i have decided to do whatever is needed to be done to make it better.I can't go to my grave with the regret that i didn't try.