My dad always told to be afraid of boys who
will leave me and break my heart but he never warned me
that my heartbreak wouldn't come from boys and sometimes
it wouldn't even mean love and sometimes it was so
much more than whatever they try to sell you about love,
it was so much more than "just love" and so much ******* less.
My dad never told me to be afraid of a God that
held my whole existence in His mind by His will.
My dad never told me that girls would break my heart
just as far, and that it was all for the best.
My dad never told me that I was going to break my own heart
when I laid down and didn't want to get up and realized
there wasn't much I wanted to wake up for.
My dad never told me that boys would be the least of
my problems and that silence wasn't dangerous or that
the world was confusing and difficult or that
he didn't know which way was up or down anymore
and I never told my dad, neither did I. Neither did I.