my jeans and stained underwear are rubbing up against the rawness we deposited between my legs, each step clawing, pinching at my tenderness.
you never really notice the roughness of lace until it is scraping across your rug burn and snagging its porous cheeks on sprouts of razor-edged hair, who knew something so delicate could be so torturous.
the raggedness of my curled mane wears like a scarlet letter on my forehead, a blaring siren of mindless wandering into a long-poisoned fantasy that reeks of your pillowcase, and cigarette ash, and far too much whiskey.
habits are making a mockery of my life, but I've been dying since I exited the womb so it feels familiar, familial, just like this coarse ache of denim and lace against raw flesh.