I'm sad today
I've no reason to be
I'm  mad
my aloofness
isn't due to anyone thing
or a person in particular

These ambiguous feelings
have a way
of causing
havoc on me
my life and relationships

Friends more like foe
I'm finding it so dang hard
to freaking articulate
how I'm feeling
or my reasons behind
what I'm feeling
I liked you a moment ago
In a flash
I now wish
I could strangle you

Impassivity  
maybe
rather say
it's more like frigid

yeah that's the best way
to describe
my bitter resentments
a moment ago I wanted to cook & clean
now
I just want to hide
I don't wish to speak to anyone
See me in whats going on
well we have a very
close acquaintance with madness
I'm so not understood
which is why

I've opted to be more of a recluse
I can be happy
then in a seconds it's gone

Laugh at a joke
then
be strictly upset
any provocation
will work
  I don't need a reason
to
dance in misery
flirt with darkness
or
make love to madness
I'll
find any excuse
to sum it up as love
No matter my mood some
how my mind plays these tricks
it'll finds way
every day to
be upset & hurt

Even when
nothing is wrong
  I'll find ways
that's just how it works

Yet I still wonder why

I'm drowning in regret

I'm sad today

I've no reason to be

Guess it's just one of
them days
Just one of my
Bipolar days
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