I've lost it all...
Lost love,
Lost my family,
Lost my sense of self,
Lost my heart along the way,
For love.
Everyone and everything
Seems to be against me.
******* the world
From my mistakes,
My disbeliefs,
My uncertainty,
My empathy,
For love.
In this moment...
Everlasting,
Painful and debilitating,
Taking over every ounce,
Square footage of my being,
I am drowning without a fight.
How could what felt like a lifetime of happiness
Feel like it is now an eternity of misery?
Knowing it was my fault...
My choices,
My beliefs,
My dishonesty,
Holding back,
For love.
Out of control,
Living a lie,
In denial,
Out of character,
All for love
After I've lost it all.