In a dream you are successful made it. The reality is you struggle to sure.
Everyone has that dream job, but when the work comes it more than imagined.
The fear of not being able succeed is the mind playing tricks on you.
Its been done before starting over not sure where or how too many ways but lost with your own.
The mind looking for distractions something to latch on to because things are missing.
All mind can do is wander and become something all that's known doesn't make sense.