this lack of communication
is leaving me wondering even more
it's not even that we're dancing
around the subject
we're at a stalemate
silence
i would rather the alternative
because at least then i would have
noise to distract me from
the bustle of my busy mind
running in every which direction
trying to find
where we stand
we weren't standing
when you kissed me
we were on your floor
listening to records
reading comics
and then everything stopped
when you kissed me,
all except my mind
which was racing
and my heart which was pounding
wondering if you kissed me
just because you were intoxicated
or because being intoxicated gave you
the little bit of courage needed
to close the gap between my lips and yours
or in that moment was there clarity?
because it really isn't clear to me
and i guess in a bit we'll see
where we stand
for now i sit in
the chaos of my curious mind
wishing i had even a clue
of where to go
from here.