You're not obligated to be here
I can do this on my own
Pick myself off the ground like I did for all the days you were -I don't know where-
Don't expect me to utter the words need followed by your name
I don't need you
I don't need you
I don't need you
I will break down inside and reach for you begging you to hold me tight
But my hands will stay still
And don't you try to soften me up because I will push you away
My brain will drift away with the fever and feel your touch
Imagine I'm in your presence
And I will tell you things that I won't tell anyone again
"Where's my dad?
What happened?
They're lying to me, right?
I haven't seen him in a year
I am a smaller version of him
Now where am I gonna go when I lose myself
Who will tell me who I am and what I'm like?
Where do I go now?"
And I will keep calling your name
Waiting to hear you say yes everything will be okay
But my mouth will say nothing but short unnecessary answers that won't reveal anything
And You should stay here and I should cry to you
Because my tears won't fall any other way
And if they don't I might never heal
For those who break and fall must rise again
But those who take the sadness in silence
Implant it in themselves and live with it forever
As a part of everyday life
As a part of them
And it will never die and they will never rise until they rise from the dead
Hah do you still believe in death?
I have died once
How many is yet to come?
Go back to where you came from