"life is a gamble at terrible odds if it was a bet, you wouldn't take it" it seems like i already have; on the inside, i spin coins against myself. life's odds are not as bad without love but love has odds stacked high against me; especially in moments like this when i marvel over how beautiful he looks against the city lights at 2am - moments like this one end up being moments in which he leans over to my friend and tells her she is the prettiest he's ever seen. (she, later on, will tell me she thinks he's not too bad i will, to myself, scoff at her understatement but tell her to go for him, "he's cute" and spend that night crying on my own) if love was a bet, you wouldn't take it but i already have. against the city lights at 2am, he calls me a taxi and that's the last i'll see of him.