i. you kissed and touched me even when i begged you to stop you stole my innocence then blamed me for the tragedy you stole my faith in men in myself in my ability to control situations around me thank you for opening my eyes to the terrors of the world and in doing so making me more cautious and jaded
ii. you didn't believe me you thought i was lying or worse that i had initiated it you made me repent and wash away the taint of someone else's sin breaking my trust in an institution that had claimed protection and safety since i was a baby
iii. you stole what was left of me on that cool may night with beer on your breath and lust in your eyes when i begged you and whispered no you said it'll be over soon and in the morning my body was sore and my soul was gone you were my biggest secret
iv. you told me how fat i was and that i didn't need to eat that to eat this to indulge because how could i be a beautiful bride if i gained an ounce let alone a pound your own insecurities and brokenness spilled over and colored me shameful and dependent until i finally gained enough strength to leave
v. you were the first man who held me and touched me and didn't make me cringe because you actually liked me you listened to me and heard my words you stopped when i asked and didn't take advantage you were so kind and my first friend in a new place so i'll never be able to repay you for helping to rebuild my trust in the opposite ***
vi. i remember so clearly when we first started talking how i knew i wasn't good enough for someone like you i was broken stained with the tragedies i'd experienced no longer pure that night you listened for six hours as i told you every terrible event all the mistakes i'd made then you loved me all the more and i realized that i wasn't so broken at least not beyond repair and your love was making me whole again and continues to do so to this day