Its so hard to leave the house today Its so hard to feel good today Its so hard to give a **** today Its so hard to fake a smile today
My throat ached at 4 in the morning Tossing and turning You are in every single one of my dreams On drugs throughout the night and day Until I closed my eyes, aching I felt so free at the time Not sleeping a wink at night Snuggling dear friends Discussing now and then I thought we were everything.
I guess I was so wrong And thats what hurts most of all But everyone cheers and chants: You are so very strong. Better without him And its true But I wish I didn't have to leave my room I could just kiss goodbye To what we had, what I thought we were And what we turned out not to be I imagine you must be working right now Making up your cocktail recipes Rattling and yapping At anyone who will listen My God, I tried.
I really did. But there is no world in which You metamorph There is no world in which I become the girl you wanted me to be Because I am all woman Its not even that I'm lonely Or long to be with you still I just wanted you to be more man.
Aching and contemplating I wish I felt more motivated today Everything a chore, just get me through this week I wish I could go back to dancing so freely in front of a mirror But I now have that beautiful memory Within me And it wasn't because of you It wasn't because of any man I just gave myself permission To be exactly who I am.