i just don't feel the same way that i use too
and
i wish i did
because i love you so
much
and not at
all

maybe
it's not you, it's me.
maybe im a skyscraper
collapsing
into
a preschool full of people that never play fair
but didn't deserve to die
but maybe
i killed them
and used there bones
as silverware for the dinner i have made you tonight
and
maybe
i'm a cobra
spitting poison into their mouths
because  
im scared
that they'll cut my head off
and cook me and my kids in a gumbo
and
maybe
nothing is what it seems
but you don't know that
and neither do i
    and
just,
*******
maybe
i'm actually disapointed in myself
for letting this all fall down around us
and for watching
you
watch me
not closely enough.

you didn't even
      try
to
hold
       those
rafters up

but,
i suppose you let go a long time ago.

you laughed that little laugh of yours
and let them impale
you
and me too

didn't think i could feel it
but boy, did i ever.

Hahahaha

i caused this mess.
i set the world on fire.
but worst of all

i was foolish
     to think you
could
withstand
     me
.