*The iron gates to the graveyard creaked liked bones. It was my kryptonite death and darkness I know you live here now. Your mother told me a few hours ago. I search for your grave in the moonlight. I see a candle burning on a headstone. I know it is you your mother visited this afternoon. I sit down on the mowed lawn of the cematary. Fear has left now i have found you. I throw on a playlist from the long ago past. And settle down for one of our chats. I know it will be me doing all the talking Buts that ok it was always like that . Do you remember when we were kids? I was sat on the dock by the lake The sky was blue The lake was blue Your eyes were blue And I was black and blue Stepfathers are not always kind. You slipped next to me Placing your arm over my beaten young shoulders. Your hair smelt like sunlight. Just the small touch of kindness Made my eyes tear up. I wanted to shout my love for you. Across the water of the big lake. But only silence would come out. The one who stole my childhood With his cruelty and anger. Had beaten my inner confidence away as well. Do you know I wrote love poems for you but i never sent them. But they were beautiful Just like you were. When you moved away I was desolate. I tried to find you years later To say I am cured I am me again. My pain is healed I love you. But you were married. I heard you have a daughter. She is with your mother Who cannot keep her As she is very sick herself. Since you and your husband Had the car accident I just want you to know I will look after your daughter Like you took care of me. And she will be safe And provided for. I wish you could let me know You understand. That you wanted this. Just then as if by magic A cloud passed the moon And its light lit up the headstone. As if in answer to me A beautiful monarch butterfly Landed on my hand Staying motionless for a full minute. I knew she was there. I touched the cold granite stone And said l always loved you honey. And I always will. I walked to the light of the street. And felt it was far enough away. So she could not hear me. Sitting on a park bench. I put my head in my hands And I wept like a child.
18 months later
Belinda just turned thirteen She is a beautiful child. Looking just like her mother. we never had children At first we were afraid. But after a week or two We were in love with her My wife and Belinda Are like sisters and confidents. They shop have lunch And chat like best friends. I do everything I can for her She is the light of my life. The adoption papers were signed a month ago. She makes me full of joy and tears with a single action. When the papers were signed She threw her arms around my neck and hugged me Then she brought tears to my eyes. When she said I love you dad.