why is it so hard for me to figure out my feelings?
what is so difficult about:
who you love;
and who you don't?

what is love?
the concept of love confuses me,
throwing me into oblivion,
preventing me from ever finding out what exactly,

love is.

love is hope;
love is pain;
but is it?

i will never know what love is,
because im too late;
too far down the rabbit hole,
drowned in my tears,

guilt weighing me down,
gravity bringing me down,
my lies killing me slowly,
my heart burning me slowly.