I wonder what would happen
If I gave you all my words;
Sealed in envelopes and wrapped in pretty bows?

I wonder, would you cry,
As you read about my pains;
Would you understand why I hurt so very, very deep?

I wonder if you would jump for joy
As you read about my happiness;
Would you rejoice as I discovered new feelings and relationships?

I wonder if you would share in my confusion
As you read about my struggles;
Would you realize how scared I am, not knowing where I fit in?

I wonder, would you see my loneliness,
As you read about my ended friendships;
Would you comprehend why I never let people get too close?

I wonder if you would see my calls for help
As you read between the lines;
Would you see the pain, the darkness, that reaches out through my words?

But all I'll ever do is wonder,
Because I know you'd never read my words;
Even if I asked you to.