i'm so scared of losing you
that i can't picture myself
having you.
i can picture waking up in an empty bed
filled with drunken regrets
i can picture sitting alone
watching you across the room
i can picture rejection and pain
after embarrassment and shame
but i can never picture
you and me
because i'm to scared
of you leaving
right now you're here
maybe not with me
but here
and the fear of that changing
is enough to keep me quiet