To all the boys who've left me
Who've flat out rejected me
Who've exposed me to reality
Essentially to all of you I've ever cared about,
Thanks to life
To unforeseen circumstance
To your heads and hearts
I will never know what it's like to know you
On a level reached by no other
I will never experience what it feels like
To be held by you
I will never be able to predict how you'll react
Before you even do
I will never get to tell you how much I miss you
Whenever you are gone
You will never understand why I even cared
In the first place
You will never ask for what reason I noticed you
On the day that I did
You will never see the way I carry myself
When I fake a smile
You will never face the agony
Of not knowing what you've lost
Yet still finding yourself able to picture what it could've been
And mourning its loss
You will never
But still I'm not sure who has lost the most