I remember the first time I met her At the orphanage. I was a lifer who wants to adopt fourteen year old boys? Apparently no one.
She was so beautiful and had the most angelic face. Oh! her smile it was like bright sunshine.
Unsure of how to address a Nun I always called her Ma’am. She did not seem to mind.
I think that was when I realized she was the only friend I had. What I did not know was I was falling in love with her.
I have never seen as much kindness before or since. It flowed from her.
She stopped me running away again, and taught me how to read books, great books by important authors. To learn poetry and talk about its meaning.
At this point I knew I loved her. That confusing rite of passage between boyhood and manhood. She took me to the mission where the homeless lived and we served in the free kitchen. I would follow her anywhere to be by her side.
She was relocated after a couple of years to a mission in Africa. I was desolate Begging to go with her
I even asked her to marry me. She smiled and said if she was free she would marry me in a heartbeat.
But explained gently to my young heart. that she was already married to her faith. Showing me her gold ring.
She died a few years later her letters stopped coming. It was a bout of malaria.
Now when I feel alone or sad. I open an old shoe box and read her stacks of letters
one by one. Always in the order that she sent them to me. And as usual I feel warm and safe again.