I am trying
to flush you
out of my system
like a drug addict
I am in withdrawal
Every sentence
you whispered to me
every word
of love
imprinted upon
my heart's walls.
I am remembering
the intimate talks
under the stars
on those private
night walks
in the cool
dark air
that soothed
and excited
my burning heart
as secrets and confidences
we did share

As I think of
the sound of your voice
I also know deep inside
That there was a risk
in my secret choice
a danger of loss did abide
for I have others to think of
and that was
too difficult for us
to bear
Yet whilst I realize
that this decision
is wise
the heart is
still prone
to tear.

O comfort me, winds from above
Let me heal from
this burning love
Let the power of
my being
Release my pain
And be so
freeing
I raise my arms
in supplication
I let the calming
night air
rock me to sleep
under Orion's belt I wander
thinking of healing
emotions so deep
soothing my heart
soothing my soul
filling the wound
with a poultice
to seep

And I know
that in my mourning
a lesson will be learned.
Perhaps inside
a small voice of warning
to ensure that
in the future
I will not be burned.
I will feel passion
with joy
and wonder
but make sure
to choose wisely
before it gets deep
to keep my heart
from being pulled a-sunder
to keep my eyes
from wanting to weep.
I will walk through life
and enjoy it
Take it by the horns
And celebrate its fire
I will feed my intelligence
with fodder
of poetry and music
feed my soul
with love and desire
I will strive for perfection
and be a good woman
a great mother
yet never give up
on my dreams
and when needed
I will call upon
divine intervention
to bathe me
in the
sacred light
of its
comforting
beams