don't take the detour in your fancy car
to this place
my dear,
the road less followed here
is still followed and still not worth the hours you will spend
trying to understand the sheer entirety of
it all

please don't waste your life
trying to find the beauty in this place
it
will be hard
if not impossible
to do

but if you decide to gamble
and
wager all your love and all of your life with me on this
do
check in the garbage cans
amongst the homeless hearts
and maybe in the gum under that bench
or the crumpled wrappers on the asphalt
right over there

in those forgotten things
you will find the good.

maybe.

i'm thoroughly convinced
that
everyone's blind
and schizophrenic
     here
and i don't want to listen to the noise that ricochet's off the walls of my skull anymore
when they're banging on their drumsets at two in the ******* morning
as if they're monkeys in a ******* zoo.

you're all too ******* loud.
go choke on your ****** personalities
and
shut up.


the cars beeping in the early morning
the screams
  the laughter

i can't help but
hate you all
because as much as i deny myself regular human interaction
and the ability to feel
as much as i keep myself locked up in a state of numb

  i crave your simplicity
to the deepest part of my core
and
i wish
so badly i could be happy and content with keeping up with regular trends and falling in love
and marriage and religion and laughing children
and babies coming into this world
and sunshine and butterflies
but i grew the **** up
and started seeing everything for the way it really is
ever since that one night
when i was too high to stop you
and you ****** me
with some type of desperation
and i told you to stop
bur you didn't hear me
i guess

were your ears virgins to the word ****..? or were you just dumb?

so many nights i try to justify what you did
to me
and convince myself that it was just the hallucinations
but we both know that i'm lying to myself..

whatever.
i'm over it.
doesn't matter anymore.
that's all seemingly irrelevant
all that matters is that
you know
that you ****** with the wrong girl
and so did all the rest of you.

i will sink this ship with all of you in it
even if it means going down with your sorry souls

and i don't care if you haunt me
i get enough screams in my dreams
when you touch my skin hugging jeans
(if you know what i mean)

so yes now that we're all on the same page
i
hate everyone
and that hate has festered like an open wound
into me hating
everything
in every city

everyday.

so from one person to another don't take the detour darling, and don't come to this ****** place
because i promise you your happiness won't leave with you when you pack up your bags

(i will have stolen it in the night)

you were better off at home
you were better off alone.

keep your children under lock and key
and hide your wife
have it be known county wide that
if you venture too far
into my woods
and
follow the bread crumb trail
like the naughty kids you are
you are in for a real treat.


please just assume
you can
withstand me

and know that
i will consume you
if you don't consume me first

if i were you id worry about cushioning the blow on your family
instead of your hair
when i open you up with my sword and let the hate flow out of you into a river of blood
your hairs gonna be a rats nest
i'll make sure of it.
all caked with dried up blood
face smeared in dirt.
just how you belong.
  

so listen to the road signs that scream dead end
and go back

this is my ghost town
and i will defend it and my heart at all costs
and when the day comes
when i can't do it anymore
i will dig my own grave and die here.