it is hard to trust when all I've known is betrayal
           please don't be mad
      when I can't roll over and play dead like a domesticated dog
            when I'm static and stiff, keeping my distance with wary eyes
      when I need constant reassurance or when the worry pierces my heart
            and pounds off the walls
                  turning me grey
                        tugging at my hair
                               shaking my limbs until I appear to you as a hologram
           a shivering image of a girl
                with a bruised heart
                             and
                      stolen lungs