i wrote about who i was, in the sand. and put my pictures of us on the shore.. im sorry for being a stick in the mud but i just can't forget you.
at least not today.
maybe it's these memories sitting atop my shoulders and in the trees hidden in the leaves entangled in my hair..
you always were a little catty i knew you were wild but you won't come down from that tree on my head and i guess i've built this sand castle for us to sleep in for nothing .
im tired. okay.
i need at least another eight hours.
scratch that.
make it eleven. eleven more hours to be free of you.
i can't grow in this substrate that you've planted me in you've filled my veins with sand and im a bit too hard for everyone's liking these days... (if you know what i mean.)
i need to sleep but all i can think about is how much i hate you all at once and not at all
i shouldn't have given you a chance but i let my guard down and i let you water me with your crocodile tears.
pathetic.
i should have realized we were toxic but you soaked yourself into my veins and now im growing on the false pretense that you loved me.
once.
maybe..?
you kissed me. and i foolishly opened my mouth to let you in. but you bit down on my tongue and your holding it hostage and suddenly you've turned into the kids who kicked over my sandcastle that one summer and laughed at me in tears
i was so proud of that **** sand castle. *******.
k.
i need to sleep and its only eleven in the **** morning. i got four hours last night because i woke up to you sticking sandbags into my skin and i broke my back getting up this morning as i tried to breathe
so yeah, i'll cry you a river i'll cry you a ******* ocean if it makes you miles apart from my mind my house my bed MY skin. my town.
god do i miss the days when i didn't have to write poetry to cope with this bone-crushing feeling i get when i see your ugly girlfriend
(who i made out with, might i add.)
she's fourteen years old and you're going on nineteen.
nice.
i wrote poems in the sand of who i was before i met you the things i wanted to do the man i wanted to marry the person i wanted to be i told the shore all of my secrets and you collected them like seashells. a little memento of what you murdered somewhere on the left side of my chest and you know what keep that old broken down thing what the **** would i need it for anyways
if love means leaving bruises on someone's legs and making someone scared to go outside of your arms then i don't want it anymore. scratch that. ever again.
i keep stock of the good times and keep count of the bad write your name and my heart out in the sand
and come morning the waves have washed it all away.
if nothing meant something maybe you wouldn't mean anything to me