that’s the thing with those trophy wife types, never really mandible in *** like a jaw ought to be, too stiff, too anorexic model type: pooch pooch a handbag full of duck quack pouts of the lips. i like mandible women, scary scarred women, the types that will grow into fond babushkas and cook you a broth. ah all this crap with daddy longlegs walking into a paparazzi web of flashes is ruining the red carpet, i was about to frizz it up into cushion afro softness that would be quicksand for high heels. i need blotches i need survival skills that hold the skin together, every wrinkle, every passing jest of “irrelevance,” every amulet glow of feeling through the kaleidoscope of depression, jet-lag i call it, although i rather call it trombone, with the numbers it was bound to happen, leaving the mammalian kingdom and entering the insect kingdom, it was bound to happen, the lost identity tiling the earth, ploughing the eardrum for symphonies, it was just waiting... just waiting... like a spider waiting with the flies of the urbanisation of green & green... can’t change my mind... blotches on skin and bulges of missing protein on the hips... perfect girth for child rearing... i don’t like perfect... it’s supposed to have an aesthetic aura of an art gallery... instead it has an aesthetic aura of hygiene of a hospital; i arrested all the beauticians while talking to the paediatricians painting my nails with u.v. liquorice in this hospital of hygienic looks but unhygienic romping pompoms that swayed man to chlamydia.