I just want to feel safe
I don't want to always feel
               emotionally bedridden
        awaiting the next barrage of
               acidic affection and inconsistent insults
I don't want to feel chained down
               by everything around me
               always trying to do what's right
        Never feeling like I'm enough.
Constantly feeling tossed about
        blame placing on everything me
        and around me
I feel stuck at a crossroads
and I'm not sure where to go.
Little lost in my faux heart
I don't know what I'm doing
        anymore
I'm sorry.