I find myself watching Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind Over and over and over again.
I've seen this movie over 200 times. I watched it seven times in one day Over and over and over again...
The equivalent of more than fourteen hours; more than half of a day wasted pretending I could erase him too. I just couldn't stop.
The fantasy was too enthralling... I wished I had Alzheimer's, since the procedure doesn't exist, but if I did, he would have been the only thing I could remember.
That was three years ago. And honestly, I'm not sure why I've watched it three times this week.
I think I'm preparing myself for the moment when what seems too good to be true finally is.
And maybe when this moment strikes me like a bolt of lightning, I won't feel the need to watch it as many times as before.
Then again, I've heard lightning never strikes the same place twice.
I hope for the best and prepare for the worst.
...Ironically enough, I hope that I forget I felt this way tomorrow.
"Blessed are the forgetful, fore they get the better even of their blunders."