Curled in a ball on the floor
Cold, wrapped up in my own limbs
The knife lies only a foot away
Concealed deep within my most private drawer
The horizontal scars from the past won't do,
Not anymore, they won't save me
Maybe it's the day I'll finally escape
One long deep vertical slice and
My insides will slowly seep out, until
I'm soaked in a crimson puddle
Of my own self destruction
And self hatred
drowning the last remains
Of my physical being
I'd never see you in geology
But you'd see me
After a long day you'd return
To our safe place
Surrounded by questions on where I was
And why I didn't show
You'll hear the music blasting from behind a closed door
Call my name, only silence replies
With a creack, you slide through the door
Come over to my sleeping body
The carpet looks darker now that you're closer
Fall to your knees in the sudden realization
The tears choke your screams
I've found my own safe place
Where my soul will rest forever.