You’d think that when someone tells you they love you and want to be with you that they actually mean it. If not why say it? The dedication and truth behind their little blue eyes seems so very real. The illusion of safety Thats what I call it the illusion that I have control over how other people feel about me. the illusion that I think I know whats good for me. the illusion. When someone tells you these things it makes you feel special. Why? Theres nothing special about any of those words, or any other words that are supposed to make you feel good about yourself and your situation. You believe it to be true Just because you like lying to yourself she didn't betray you. you betrayed you you lied to you she just did what she did and it had nothing to do with you it was her fun, her idea, her problems, her hate, her love, her confusion you did you and she did him you did you and she did them A brick to your face it feels kind of refreshing though? doesn't it? its still just another addiction you might as well grab the needle spoon happy face wax paper bag powder white pour squirt, mix, stick, pull puncture pull blood pours in like a jellyfish hold your breath push all pain is gone it is all good you're all good everything is now fine you love yourself again