I’m a freckled 5'5'' solider. I like wrestling with my dogs so that my jeans retain a layer of fur - even if they were my favorite pair, I will wear the hair with pride. ...but I wear make-up to make up for the way I lose my face looking in mirrors, measuring my stomach by fingertip lengths, wondering how the 5th grade girl who’s lungs wanted too much air would care about the way I carry my chest now: like a treasure that’s been too long held under the sea If that girl could see me, she’d write an entry in her Lisa Frank diary about hope, instead of fear, rejection, fear of rejection and God - I remember praying God would change me and I’m so glad he didn’t. I’m glad that I got the chance to do this one on my own. I have grown into a person, with a weird shaped head and too small feet, with a spotted heart that finds ways to beat. For those who call me damaged, including myself (mostly myself) - like hell. I’m still as completely as valid as a function as I was as a small purple infant with light blonde fuzz I was what I was and I am what I’ll be: a freckled 5’5’’ ocean tide, shifting into me.
Wrote this over the summer. Figured I'd post something that's a bit more full of pride. Here's a video of me doing this here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wzH9T-zMwms (at 2:50)