I remember saying how I just wanted to become the best possible version of myself and I remember being that person about a year ago and then I ruined it, but I had started to pick myself up and put myself back together and then God gave me you and it was like I was that person again, I was starting to become, once again, the best possible version of myself. I had missed the smiles that surfaced on my face during those times and how it felt to be so full and so happy and content and even with the darkness surrounding me, it didn't matter due to how wonderful everything was even with everything else going on. God, do I miss you and that and the way you made me feel like I was going to be something amazing. But I guess it's just time for me to learn how to be that version of myself without someone else by my side. Maybe it's time to be completely alone for awhile.