You slid in and took my place.
I'm happy that you've found another but at the same time I hate it.
I tear myself apart every time I see you together.
I say that should have been me but maybe they needed it more.
It isn't fair though because I didn't ask for this.
I hate this.
I loveeee doing it but I hate the consequences.
I do this because of you and them.
All the times we should have been on the playground remembering, we weren't.
I wish you knew.