I figured out my suicide plan doctor You've been asking if I had one And now I do I want to swallow just enough pills Not to much Just enough to make the voices in my head finally go way Then I will climb to the roof with my note books Every single thing I've ever written And I will bring my best friend ***** Yes doctor, I've told you that I have other friends, but ***** was here when no one else was And I will write till the voices come back I will write about every time I have tried to **** myself I will write a letter to everyone who knows me Even the janitor that found me skipping class my sophomore year And the boys on the bus from middle school Even the people who wont let my name soil their lips Doc, I'm gonna write these letters because I need everyone to have a permeant personal good bye, something physical I will fill up two note books with everything I write And then I will write to whatever god there may be And tell them I'm sorry that I had to end everything this way You see doctor I've never believed in God, but if there is even a small chance he's real I don't want to leave on bad terms I'm going to write down every coping skill I know and address it in a letter to my parents Then once I can no longer write even my name I will stand and dance in the light of the moon Letting the soft glow dance on my skin And I will ignore the chill of the night I will dance till my knees shake And then I will speak to the moon Doc the moon is like *****, Its always been there I will apologize to the moon Reaching to hold it in my arms Toes on the edge I will fall reaching for the moon And in the final moments I will rejoice in the cool wind nipping at my skin I will bask in the soft shimmer of the stars I will say I'm sorry as the soft grass makes contact with the back of my head You see doctor I've figured out my suicide plan