The soft whirring of the heater keeps my breathing steady just long enough for me to close my eyes and fight back the tears. But it's not enough to reassure me of much, aside from the fact that my skin is warm and I am alive. For it cannot calm my heart or quell my fears. It will not provide answers to the questions burning inside of my throat. Where are you?
The armrest holding my head up is uncomfortable at best; it is a nagging reminder of all that is amiss. I turn over and back trying to make it right but it still hurts. My gaze is downcast, fixed upon an object so prone to destruction that it's a wonder I've kept it around. Double checking myself brings not relief but disappointment; not in you, but in me.
The phone that sits beside me is endlessly mocking; I clench it tightly in a fist of frustration, willing it to respond. Not only is it lifeless but it drains me of what life is left within my broken heart. I catch myself hoping you're okay; then I face reality and admit to myself that this is the end. Will you return? There is no answer.