I can hear you
Your deep, mellow tone
But I'm not listening

I can feel you
Your smooth, soft skin
Gently grazing my perimeters
But I'm not responding

I can show you
A different side of me
Aggressive, sporadic, hysterical
But do you want to see?

Cause all I'm giving you
Is what you're asking of me
I'm pushing myself
To be close to you
But I'm not going to be your intimacy

I like the idea of us
Not us exactly
I like the idea of love
Not me being part of it
I like the concept of trust
Not with letting my guard down
But I'll do it all the same

I am not your final frontier
Trespass my being
Perforate all my dents
But will you?

So kiss me
Till my creases even out
Till my muscles defy numbness
Till my heart bleeds

Then hug me
Wait for my spine to crack
Wait for my knees to rise
Wait for my eyes to tear

And caress me
Show me you like me
Lie to me that you love me
Prove to me that you need me

But I won't be feeling