The first time it happened
I lay on the  cold wood of my floor
My tears, my innocence,
and my blood mixing on it
My limbs lead
How could this happen?
Continuously roams through my head
I thought you'd never hurt me
Me a child
Couldn't see how this terrible thing
Could happen to me
At the hands of someone
Who was suppose to protect
With trembling legs
I stood and stumbled to the bathroom
Where I spill everything
that I had left in me
Into the shower and
watch it go down the drain
Hoping that this pain would too flow away
I naively think that this would be the only time
But you come into my room every night
Sometimes during the day
When my mommy was away
And you'd call me princess,
Make me put on short and skimpy clothes,
Put on make-up,
And call you Daddy,
Even though you know I never call you Daddy
And every-time you touched me
Put you lips on mine
I slowly died inside
A piece of my heart disappeared
And it continued for so many years
Until I was so use to it
I no longer cried
But Oh!
How I hated myself on the inside
But as I grew older
I also became wiser
But you being 20 years older
Always were a step ahead
And you'd punish me
" For being a bad Princess"
I never tried again after the 10th time
I thought I'd never get out
So I was going take myself out
My 15th birthday just around the corner
And you'd somehow convinced my mother
To let you take me to your lake house
For Daddy Daughter Time
I knew i couldn't go with you
I could see thorough that lie
But Mommy made me
And the second we arrived
Your little game began
And no matter how much I pleaded or cried
I still wound up in my usual place
Even on my special day
And as you lay on top of me
I feel so ***** I can't even breathe
I pray to god for a release
And asked him
**Where Are You?