Change
The word that makes my heart flutter and stomach turn
The word that dignifies new beginnings
but also
The word that no overly-attached, over-thinking girl wants to hear
or feel

Change
Quarters, Pennies, Nickels, Dimes
while at the same time
the moment in which my entire body becomes so overwhelmed with emotion
I can barely even think

Change
What I use to pay for my morning coffee
or to take the subway to where only God knows
trying to escape the feelings of change

It's crazy isn't it?
How change can be so many different moments all at once?
Moving houses
Getting married, making a family
Finding a new coffee shop to spend too much of your time in
Loosing a best friend
Dropping out of University and moving to a city an hour and a half away from home to start a new life
to feel truly free
to be independent
to live

But change
isn't always bad
It doesn't always mean loosing everything you once had
or forgetting every ounce of memory you once contained in your precious mind

Change
A new start
A reason to be refreshed
Meet new people, experience new things
Live life to the absolute fullest extent

I've always wanted to travel and be free
But I have a fear of change
How very ironic

Because the edge of my comfort zone
is where my life begins
And I would be crazy to not take every opportunity life throws at me

So here I am,
embracing the change that's occurring all around me
sitting in a little coffee shop off of King West
far from home
and all I've ever known
writing this poem