I don’t know what to tell you My mind is spinning so fast I pull at my hair to make it stop But that no longer works The pain isn’t enough anymore Reluctantly I reach for my wrist Digging my nails in Hoping that the pain will be enough The pleasure it brings me doesn’t help As all of this occurs You ask me what's wrong Reaching out desperately to help me But I coil back Trying to reach another Who no matter how mean is always there To forbid what I’m too scared To promise away My grip changes to not leave marks Now pinning my veins and bones together Under a steel vice Practice has made my hand I want to talk to you Tell you what is occurring But my heart beats against my ribs Like a caged rabbit My veins push at the thin skin above them Begging to be released from their prisons I wish I could grant their wish...