hidden secrets or beautiful lies
you write in me like I'm your notebook that's kept under lock and key.
it seems like you were doing all of this, just to humor me.
telling me not tell
because these are your deepest darkest secrets
but in reality your just
yelling stay with me.
I look at you
& I see you drowning
or maybe falling off a cliff
I know your reading this and saying
she must be psychologically insane or the godsister of Cain
but you have to understand my point of view.
you're writing all these things instilling them inside me
showing me that you value every single page
you say your done hurting people
& that's why you won't leave her
you know that's not where you want to be .
your heart isn't there -
your heart is with me -
I should've been more transparent with my feelings -
I admit that -
causing confusion
& feelings of mixed emotions
was never my intention
I can't let you go
they're right about that.
so quick to mention my flaws an all - a - that
but they're wrong
I'm sorry
I don't show love like all these other females out here
always all up under their man -
& holding their hands
that's not me
I show love through my gestures
my voice
my eyes
my poetry
& that's not something I can or want to change about myself
& I'm sorry that I needed space
& you had to be alone from time to time
denying what my heart has been screaming out
but I keep feelings like this to myself because I'm my own notebook
with my heart under lock & key
hidden secrets or beautiful lies
you use to write in me like I'm your notebook
but now that lock is broken
and I threw away the key .