*I remember like it was yesterday the first time I met her I was being punished for running away from the orphanage yet again. I had used up my warnings and this time I was going to be caned. I knew the rules 12 strokes on the bare bottom applied by matron. I shrieked in agony begging for mercy but they were all delivered with full purchase mercy was in short supply in that place. Thatβs when the door opened she had heard my screams in the corridor. and I saw her for the first time so beautiful with clear pale blue eyes she looked so kind. She walked up to me what have they done to you? She cried. Put on your pants young man she said. I did not know how to address a nun so I called her Ma'am. She did not seem to mind. I sobbed I can't ma'am I am too sore. She hugged me as I sobbed holding my head to her breast. Even through her habit I could feel her softness like that of the mother I never knew or held. The tears flowed and flowed not just from the pain and shame of my beating. But from all the abandonment, loss, pain and sadness of my young life. she said softly cry let it out tears are gods safety valve purge the pain. I cried for twenty minutes. I was a lifer who adopts 14 year old boys apparently nobody. She placed ice packs on my caned bottom. Then she prayed for the saints to bless me. She met with me every day caring and kindness. so lovely her face radiant her heart so kind. She stopped me from running away again. We Read great books by important authors. Learned poetry and discussed its meaning. It occurred to me she was my only friend. What I did not know was I was falling in love with her. In the foggy corridor that joins boyhood and manhood. I was lost and confused. She took me the mission where the lost and homeless came and we served free food. I would have followed her to the moon. I have never met anyone before or since so pure and beautiful. She was relocated three years later to a mission in Africa. I was desolate. I begged to go with her. I even asked her to marry me she was gentle to my young heart. if I was single I would marry you in a heartbeat she said. But I am already married to my faith. Showing me her gold ring i am a bride of Christ. She died a few years later her weekly letter stopped coming. It was a bad case of malaria but I know that God needed her in heaven to light up it's dark corners. Even now after all this time long passed the college days I owed to her. I know her prayer to the Saints that she said for me was answered. I met a beautiful lady at college we are married with two wonderful children. At last my own family. On the holidays we all serve food at the mission. When we get home on the portrait wall at the center of all our pictures is a black and white framed portrait of a nun with the most beautiful face. My daughter ask who is the pretty lady. Daddy. I say its Sister Angelica honey. But I always called her Ma'am.