My sister is twelve weeks pregnant
she is having complications
She started bleeding three days ago
she thinks she is going to have a miscarriage
Something to do with the placenta tore
but the baby still has a heartbeat
Not only can my sister not lift anything
she has to stay off of her feet
I have never seen my sister worry
She is normally really strong
When I saw her crying three mornings ago
I knew that something was wrong
To hear that I might lose my niece or nephew killed me
I left the room to talk to God
I sat on a sidewalk, begin to cry
then I started praying really hard
I asked God to take my life
I told him that I would give my life for that baby
I told him he could break my heart by taking away my boyfriend
I would get over it eventually
I told him to get me pregnant and take my child
I can handle the loss better than my sister can
I asked him to give me excruciating pain
I am pretty good at holding my own hand
I told him that I would rather have cancer
than to see my sister in pain
I asked him to please let the baby live
that I would do anything
I will give up whatever I have to
so that baby has a chance at life
I promised I would not be bitter
as long as my sister was alright
I told him I was ready to go at anytime
if he has to take me then go ahead
Just as long as I do not have to hear the words
that my sister's child is dead
I would sacrifice my life for my sister
I would do the same for her kids as well
I would do anything God asked me to
just as long as my sister doesn't  have to go through this hell