Burnt flesh,
the scent wafting into my memory.
Reminding me of more pain,
as todays gauntlet
introduces itself to me.
I am your life.
I am just another test,
to see how much we can break you.

To see how much you can lose,
before you just step over,
and out,
over the deep end.
Before you just walk away,
Never looking down.
Before your legs buckle and break.

Before the last piece of yourself,
Just gives in.
Where is my baby girl,
and why did he lie.
Why can't anyone see,
I always meant well.
I love her, she's my world.

Isolated, cold.
Just lost my reason to live.
Just lost my reason to hold on,
Just lost it all.

Why do you even bother,
Why would it even matter.
You failed your children.
You did this,
my mom will blame me.
She always made me know,
how insignificant of a human being I really was.

And now she tells my beautiful,
perfect little angel
about their useless mother,
and her forgiving heart,
such a pathetic stupid girl.
Its all her fault
Idiot.

I lost it, lost it all.
I have nothing,
I don't wanna be awake,
I don't wanna know what tomorrow will bring.
I don't wanna do this anymore.