we swim and kiss and sweat and glisten

we eat and read poetry

he tries to ****** me
with a promise of  air conditioning

have you slept with anyone recently?
its sad somehow this need to ask... as my hands map his body

yes... he pauses...last week
then adds...but i wish i hadn't

and i wonder
is this suppose to comfort?

and i wonder
what are lovers
without love?


*******?