Today, you popped up on the "people you may know" on Facebook.
I paused, caught my breath, and was forced to look.
Because Facebook doesn't understand that you are not people I may know, but you are a person that I knew. A memory took me to a time that I forced myself to forget I lived through.

Yet here you are again, a small square picture staring back at me. And seven mutual friends have the memories of our life that couldn't be.

I remember how it felt to hold your hand, I remember those piercing eyes. I remember your broken smile, a smile I despise.

I remember the things you said, I remember my battle cry, I remember the glass shatter against the wall, I remember asking why.

And as I stare at this small square picture I can see you remember too. For everything that weighs me down, must also nag at you.

You left the person in your life who loved you the most. You said goodbye to the memories you became my personal ghost.

Did I pop up as people you may know to you as well? Does looking into my fake smile and green eyes ring a bell?

You took from me my happiness. You tried to ruin my self. You took my laugh, you took my tears, and made them a trophy on your shelf.

But I refuse to lay down and let you walk all over me. I refuse to let you bind my soul, I refuse to let you hold the key. I am strong, and I deserve more than you could ever see. I deserve it, not because of you, but for simply being me.

Today I saw you as "people you make know" on Facebook, it was quite the shock.
But keep in mind, Dad, I may forgive, but I definitely have not forgot.