Most days I wonder what life would be like watching you grow
Yet it is too painful to bear this thought constantly at flow
A gift I could not keep
A precious pearl kept hidden in the deep
I was scared and afraid of what your life would be
If you stayed in my care, oh if only you see
It was my only choice
My only source of voice
I didn't have you through love
I was forced
I was pushed
I was a caged dove
But nothing can comprehend this feeling of guilt
The years of agony and suffering that has been built
If I ever get to see you again
I don't know what I'll say
Praying for your forgiveness
Grows heavier each and everyday
These never ending thoughts overwhelming my mind
Like travelling down a road with no exit signs
I hope you understand
I hope you believe
That I was not able to give you
The life you could of had
I hope you can forgive
A young mother's painful mistake
Just know I always love you
I'm sorry baby boy