I feel you, I really do. Guess what my father wasn't there too, a bunch of substitutes but no one solid. A bunch of institutes couldn't give me solace.
You'll wonder about fishing and camping trips too. You'll wonder about shaving or using a tool.
You'll learn from your friends some of the above, then you'll learn on your own and feel so unloved.
You'll get into trouble and a couple of fights, you're living and learning its the way of life.
No worries though, I'm here to tell you, If you give it you're best they'll see the value.
So don't fret my boy for I am you, keep faith stay strong and you'll make it through.-JS