Some nights I can't think about those things.

The things that make me sad.

They could be something small like how there is an unhappy baby somewhere right now wanting it's mom to hold it.

Or it could be something personal like when I think about how I will lose my mom one day.

It could be a sound, like someone crying.

It could be a thought like how someone somewhere is thinking about ending their life when they have so much to live for.

It could be something like how a dog or cat or other animal is being hurt or neglected right now, when they do nothing wrong and all they want is love.

It could be something like seeing a scene in a movie that makes me think deeply about life.

It could be thinking about how happy someone is about something you will probably never get to experience or have.

It could be my own thoughts like when I think about how stupid I am for thinking about all these things right now.

I feel them all at once.

And I cry.

And I can't seem to stop long enough to think about the happy things.

I just feel to deeply.

Until I fall asleep into darkness and I have dreams of all these things and it's like a bad movie playing

Over
And over
And over
And over
Again
And again
And again
And again
In my stupid head.

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