Let's see if I can find this
In such greyed out statues that I desperately dream what little colour is left from
These memories scorched into my sense of self, eyes and hugs and reminders that at some point I may have deserved love

Three faces come to mind
Maybe one or two more to remind me where things could have gone

Either way
I try
To let go of you
Who make me want to let go of pride and cry
But ******* I'm a man you won't take that from me
You ******* memories

The new looks I get in the blur of life's loving aesthetic
One of these days I will take a chance
On those **** ******* eyes that say
Wake up with me

****

Love's hard
Especially when you've had it before